My Journey, His Trophy

As long as I can remember I have been compelled by the things of God. The Spirit of God has always been there drawing me.

Growing up, it was normal to feel alone. In a crowded room of family and friends, were many years of deep longing I did not understand. For me, going through the motions of the everyday normal brought only a greater void of any real purpose. Perhaps it was for a reason. Perhaps that is where His beckoning began. Deep crying out to deep. Years later but what seemed like suddenly one day there arose a Light in the darkness. And something likened to a Road to Damascus experience at age 22, the Lord descended on my life and I have never been the same.

It was as if the morning fog lifted. Things became clearer and the Spirit world became more comfortable to me than this natural realm. Then over time on a journey of unfolding adventure, I went from Savior to Lordship in relationship. The distance between the two sphere’s is significant. No matter where you are on your journey there will be a day of revelation of the fullness. Or what I call "the more," but we’ll get to that later. 

Fast forward 35 years. My journey is His trophy. Not because it made sense, in fact it is far from logical. Following the true leading of the Lord is not what one would think. His ways are far above ours. I do not apologize for any of it. I have no regrets and I would not trade my story for any other. It is mine. It is where I truly met Him, and grew to love Him. And oh to know Him more.

“That image we carry around with us and project, of the perfect version of ourselves is just another thing the Lord has to chisel away in order for us to receive the fullness of His great love for us.”

One of the biggest observations I see in our Western understanding of being in relationship with the Father is that we think for some reason He is only willing to meet the already perfect, and pulled together. You know, because truth be told our life is one big mess therefore there is no way we would be acceptable enough to enter into the throne room. The reality is, we are careful who we allow to know about the depth of our issues. Because most of us are familiar with rejection and we just figure God is the same. Fact is none of us have it together. I love that. That image we carry around with us and project, of the perfect version of ourselves is just another thing the Lord has to chisel away in order for us to receive the fullness of His great love for us. He is so in love with you and me, if only we could catch a glimpse of that in our life, it would transform our world.  

In order to be in covenant with the King of Glory, Ruler of the Universe, Abba Daddy we need only respond to what He has already initiated. Let’s think of it as a response to a marriage proposal. Because that is what it is. Saying yes to the Covenant life. He shows up, says I choose you and we react by allowing Him to come in and be our father, friend, lover, husband. 

This is the most exciting thing to watch. The encounter and then the response of someone coming into the realization of his or her need. Truly allowing Him to come in and make all things new. All things beautiful. Understand beautiful in the dictionary of the Most High is not the easy road. Narrow is the Way and difficult is the way that leads to Life…If we will allow the transformation, are willing to go the distance, and be on the potter’s wheel most of our journey the fruit it produces is rare and a gift to behold.

Beyond authentically understanding that we are His beloved, cherished, adored, apple of His eye, and that He has only good for us, we need only know that there is really nothing in or of us that we have to offer except the gifts He gives us to display to the world. Even that is all Him. We have zero in us that can manifest the Spirit of God. It is supernatural. Total love, totally Him. 

It really is not until we stop thinking we are something, or know anything, or have something to say, that He seems to show up. Because the more we learn the less we know. The more we know Him, the less we remain. So, come with me on the continuation of a journey to Him.... Oh, I assure you I do not have anything to say.... but He... He just might.